tired of making gods

i am hindu
maybe that’s why
i have a habit of making gods

beautiful, mighty, divine figurines
to whom i’d bow down
for whom i’d chant prayers
who i’d tear my chest open and put on display
if needed

creating these gods
is not that hard
here’s all you need to do

first step is to love
squeeze out all you’ve got
nice and slow
it’ll take some time, so be patient

now mold it to your liking
give your god a form

next, we decorate the deity with reverence
respect is what all gods crave
it fuels their powers
and their egos
or else, how would they feel different
from us mortals

okay, we’re almost there
the last step is to trust
to have faith
to place your hopes and expectations
at their feet

trust is a funny thing
the more you trust
the mightier your god
but you become more fragile, brittle

your god now has immense powers
to protect you, heal you
to guide you, to carry you
but also
to destroy you, to shatter your heart
into a million pieces

this last step
i always get it wrong somehow

i’ve created many gods
in many forms, with many powers
with trenches of love
and mountains of respect

but this last step
ughh idk why they misdirect their power
these things work well until they don’t
i’ve tried far too many times
now i’m tired of making gods

Good night!
Aachman